Happy Sunday! 👋
After two weeks of camper van life, I flew to Cancún to join 2,000+ people at a Joe Dispenza advanced retreat.
I went in with no expectations.
No “breakthrough” I was chasing.
Just the desire to connect with myself more deeply. And maybe get a little clarity on what’s next.
I love what I do. I love helping people. But part of me has felt like there’s something even bigger I’m meant to tap into. I don’t know exactly what that is—but I figured the only way to find it is to create space for it.
And this week gave me that space. And more.
What it’s really about
Joe says we’re not here to relax or just clear our heads.
The real goal is to change our energy—to become someone new before our life does.
He talks a lot about how most of us live on autopilot.
We wake up and press play on the same old story.
Same thoughts. Same emotions. Same reactions.
And then wonder why our future looks exactly like our past.
It’s because our bodies are leading the mind.
Not the other way around.
We feel a certain way—and then think thoughts that match that feeling.
Same triggers. Same behaviors. Same results.
But meditation interrupts that cycle.
It gives you a chance to stop being the version of yourself that’s tied to your environment, your memories, your identity.
Joe says that in meditation, the goal is to become nobody, no one, no time, no thing.
Because only in that space—beyond your body and mind—can you connect to something greater.
Call it source, the field, the quantum, God.
Whatever you name it, the message is this:
When you connect to that space, you’re no longer creating from the past.
You’re creating from possibility.
And the more you do that, the more your internal world shifts—until the external one can’t help but follow.
What it looked like
The first day was registration and a short 2-hour intro from Joe.
That’s when we found out: over 2,000 people were attending.
And many had been there before. This wasn’t their first time—they were back because the experience had changed their lives.
The next six days were full immersion.
Every morning started at 6 AM.
One day? We started at 4 AM for a special pineal gland meditation—because the hours between 1–4 AM are when melatonin peaks, creating the perfect state to go beyond.
We meditated for five hours daily, sometimes more. One day we did eight.
Sitting meditations. Walking meditations. Lying-down meditations with breathwork.
Plus lectures on energy, neuroscience, healing, and consciousness.
No one knew the schedule in advance. Joe revealed it day by day.
Which honestly kept me present. Open. Surrendered to the experience.
At first, I was exhausted.
But surprisingly, by day two—I felt amazing.
The tension I usually carry in my body was gone.
I was sleeping less… but had more energy than ever.
And I kept thinking:
One hour of meditation now feels like nothing.
Because this work stretches you—mentally, physically, spiritually.
Coherence Healing
We were preparing for these sessions all week long.
In Joe Dispenza’s work, Coherence Healing is based on the idea that when a group of people enter a heart-centered, elevated state—like love, gratitude, or compassion—they can affect the energy field of another person. Not metaphorically, but energetically and physically.
The science behind it says that when your heart and brain are in sync—when you’re in coherence—you’re not just balanced within yourself. You’re radiating a measurable electromagnetic field. And that field, when amplified in a group, can support someone else’s healing.
Each session had around six “healers” surrounding one “Healee.”
There were over 200 people receiving healing during the retreat—people with cancer, depression, pain, or other conditions. Even children were brought in from an orphanage to participate. It was emotional just walking into the room.
You’d sit around the Healee—who was lying down in the center—and enter meditation as a group. Eyes closed, hearts open, you’d focus entirely on the well-being of that person in front of you. And the energy in the room? It was overwhelming. In the best way.
People were crying. People were shaking. You could feel something real happening.
And the wild part is—it’s not just about healing someone else.
When you’re focused on helping someone else, something in you heals too.
Because it’s often easier to feel deep love for others than for yourself.
But in those moments, the love you give becomes the love that moves through you.
There was one woman I’ll never forget.
She had shared her story on stage before—about her breast cancer diagnosis and addiction. I had the honor of being one of the people doing a healing session for her.
After we finished, she showed me her scans: tumors before… and almost gone after 5 months of doing Joe’s meditations daily. She told me she meditates 3 hours every day.
She looked at me and said, “I didn’t want to live before. But then, during one meditation, something shifted. I decided I want to stay. And I’ve been healing ever since.”
You can be skeptical of all this, of course.
But you can’t fake energy.
And you definitely can’t fake the light in someone’s eyes when they’ve truly changed.
What I experienced
On the final day, something happened.
We were doing an “electric body” meditation—a long breathwork session lying down. I wasn’t expecting much. In fact, I felt tired that morning. But somewhere in the middle of it, I let go completely.
And then… it happened.
Everything around me turned pitch black—but not the usual closed-eyes kind of dark. It was deeper.
Then I saw two streaks of color—like aurora lights. Green and violet. It wasn’t something I imagined. It felt real. Visceral. Like I had just stepped into another layer of consciousness.
For a moment, I wasn’t “me.” I wasn’t anywhere. I wasn’t thinking. I was just… there. A part of everything.
And then I got scared.
My heart started pounding. It was all so unfamiliar, and in that split-second fear, I pulled myself out of it. It lasted maybe 10 seconds.
But something in me knew: it was real.
That tiny moment—that glimpse—made everything click.
It’s what Joe had been teaching all along.
About mystical experiences. About becoming energy. About connecting to something bigger than ourselves.
And now that I’ve felt it?
I want to go further.
This wasn’t the end of a journey.
It was the beginning of one.
I know I’ve only scratched the surface of what’s possible.
What I don’t want to forget
As the retreat came to an end, I found myself flipping through my notebook—reading and rereading all the thoughts, reminders, and truths I’d written down throughout the week.
I don’t want to lose these. I want to come back to them often.
So I thought I’d share a few with you, too—simple notes that I hope stay with me for a long, long time:
⚡ Energy & Change
- You can’t heal while living in the same energy that made you sick.
- Change your energy. Change your life.
- Get up as if your prayers have already been answered.
- If you’re not changing, you’re still choosing.
- You have to be greater than fear, judgment, and complaining.
- All potential—every possibility—lives in the infinite field of nothingness.
- Believe. Behave. Become.
🧘🏼♀️ Meditation & Inner Practice
- Morning meditations matter. If you can overcome yourself first thing, you can overcome anything.
- The hardest meditations are where the biggest breakthroughs happen.
- When you sit in meditation, your body will do anything to pull you out. Overcome it.
- Never let a thought slip through your awareness.
- In the space of nothingness—your problems don’t exist. That’s where you invest in your future.
- Mystical experiences happen when you least expect them.
- Your body always follows your mind.
👁️ Awareness & Discipline
- The environment is always trying to make you forget. Stay awake.
- Learn to see beyond the veil of this illusion.
- To find your true self, part of you must die.
- Get out of your own way.
- No one has your answers but you.
- Never skip a day. That’s how you build confidence.
- If you say you’ll show up—show up. Keep your word to yourself.
- Assign meaning to the act to shift the outcome.
There’s so much that happened during that week—it’s honestly hard to put it all into one newsletter.
But I know I’ll keep reflecting, keep learning, and keep sharing everything I believe could be useful for you too.
In the meantime, if you want my recommendations for the two courses I did before the retreat (they were incredibly valuable), or if you’re curious about my favorite Joe Dispenza meditations—just reply to this email.
I’d be more than happy to share and chat with you.
P.S. If this work is new to you—or if you’re even just a little curious—start with the documentary Source.
It’s a beautiful entry point into understanding the science, energy, and mystery behind it all.